Saddness

When Brigham was in medical school learning about babies, how they grow and all the things that can go wrong etc- he made the comment- "With all the things that can go wrong- it is a miracle how many times things turn out just right.  Which is so true- each little child is such a miracle and a blessing.  Things didn't turn out just right for us this time.  I haven't had a miscarriage since before Kai but I am not sure I would have changed my announcement anyway.  I have had five miscarriages now.  Several that Brigham and I endured alone and others that were more public.  It is hard to go through something so traumatic alone.  So I don't regret letting our friends and family know.  Thank you all for your prayers and emails and phone calls.  A network of support is such a blessing.
We are doing fine.  It has been much more painful (physically) than other times.  Which is odd- but it is already getting better.  I understand that all things happen for a reason and I feel very comforted and blessed.  I have a beautiful family and I am grateful beyond words for each of them.  President Monson said, " The future is as bright as your faith."  Life is beautiful!